I haven't posted in days. It has been a terrible horrible no good very bad weekend and an amazing weekend rolled into one.
Friday
Bowl of Special K - Red berrries + Milk
1/2 Grapefruit
Lots of Gin
Lots of Vodka
Lots of Beer
and enough physical activity to damned near counteract all of that. Don't ask.
Saturday
Double cheeseburger from McDeath - Hangover
Babybel
Juice
Milk
Ah Caramel 100 calorie snacks x 2
Pear
Arizona Iced Tea - Green w/ Ginseng & Honey
Sunday
EVERYTHING IN SIGHT - So bad that I can't remember and don't want to talk about it, suffice to say that I finished it all off with a plate of Chinese food.
Monday
Special K + Milk
2 Babybel
2 Hard boiled eggs
2 Grilled Cheese
Ketchup
Arizona Iced Tea - Green w/ Ginseng & Honey
Hot chocolate
It has been a rediculous weekend. I don't knwo what the issue was other than I had a hell of a hangover over the course of a couple of days.
I need to figure out some form of self control. I need to be stronger than I am because right now I'm a weak, pathetic mess of a girl. I don't know how to fix this. I need to get back to the gym. I think I'm going to have to start spending more time there because it's basically the only way. HELP!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
My life through the looking glass... Day 19
We're certainly not through day 19 yet but I know that I'll be working the rest of the day and won't really have time to write later.
I know I don't get enough protein. I have no idea how I could conceivably eat as much protein as my trainer wants me to. 120 grams of protein is a LOT.
To give you some perspective, if you wanted to get that from chicken, you would have to eat 3 - 4 boneless skinless chicken breasts per day to get that much. I really don't like chicken, but that's is not the point, it's just a lot of meat, cheese, eggs, lentils and shit to get into me and I really don't eat a lot of meat. I think I'm going to have to give in and start taking some protein supplement powder or something, must go to GNC, I guess.
I didn't put up a food log from yesterday so here goes:
I know I don't get enough protein. I have no idea how I could conceivably eat as much protein as my trainer wants me to. 120 grams of protein is a LOT.
To give you some perspective, if you wanted to get that from chicken, you would have to eat 3 - 4 boneless skinless chicken breasts per day to get that much. I really don't like chicken, but that's is not the point, it's just a lot of meat, cheese, eggs, lentils and shit to get into me and I really don't eat a lot of meat. I think I'm going to have to give in and start taking some protein supplement powder or something, must go to GNC, I guess.
I didn't put up a food log from yesterday so here goes:
Breakfast - 73 Calories
3 Arrowroot Cookies
Lunch - 608 Calories
1 Cheese Bagel w/ Herb & Garlic Cream Cheese
6 Cups of Coffee w/ Milk & Sweetner
Dinner - 869 Calories
1 Cup chopped mixed vegetables
2 Cups whole wheat pasta
2 tbsp mayonnaise
75g roasted chicken
1 tbsp flax seeds
Daily Total:
1550 Calories
41 g Fat
69g Protein
225g Carbs
Yeah, yeah. Too many carbs, not enough protein. Gotcha.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
To the gym and back... Day 18
Went and worked out today and got really sick, toilet bowl hugging, wishing I could puke so that I could feel better sick.
Workout had to be cut short so I've been doing abs stuff on and off to try to make up for it. I'm going to have to go back tomorrow and get another workout in.
My trainer has new rules as follows:
On Saturday I'll be half way through the month and will give you an update on goals and photos but as a quick recap my goal was 195 by March 1. I think I need to work out harder to get there.
Workout had to be cut short so I've been doing abs stuff on and off to try to make up for it. I'm going to have to go back tomorrow and get another workout in.
My trainer has new rules as follows:
- Drink a bottle of water before every meal
- Eat 4 meals
- 2 tbsp of vinegar before every meal to block any fat that may exist in the meal
- Is it protein? Is it a vegetable? No? Then don't eat it.
- No more than 2 cups of coffee a day
- Replace excess coffee with green tea
On Saturday I'll be half way through the month and will give you an update on goals and photos but as a quick recap my goal was 195 by March 1. I think I need to work out harder to get there.
Monday, February 9, 2009
All work and no play... Day 17
Well boys and girls, I have been working like a maniac but as a result I've not been working out like a maniac. This probably isn't a terrible thing since I know that my trainer is going to kill me tomorrow but I do like to get in for some extra cardio when I get the chance, unfortunately the nature of my job requires absolute dedication from me when I have orders, and so a lot of other things tend to fall by the wayside.
I've been eating not terribly but I tend to be bad when there are people around to see me, and I have no idea why. I used to be worse when I was alone but that's done a flip flop and now when someone can see me eat, I usually do. I'm going to have to impose another rule, I think, which is no eating in front of a computer or a television because I tend to do so rather unconsciously and that is just not good.
On the upside, I was looking at my calendar for activity vs. intake and it appears that I have been, on average, burning 1000 - 1500 calories more per day then I have been taking in, and have been eating much "healthier" than I have in months. I eat far less than the average person because, well, eating that much is gross, but I do eat much better quality food. Switching back to whole foods whenever possible was the best thing I've ever done. I eat less because a lot of it is a pain to prepare, and even if I go completely nuts and eat everything in sight, it's really hard to eat 1200 calories of veggies without exploding.
Anyhow, I'm going to hit the gym Tuesday & Thursday with my trainer and will be sneaking in at least two other cardio sessions for 900 - 1200 calories per.
I'll follow that up with some new photo updates at the end of the week, I loathe to do it, but it holds me accountable.
I've been eating not terribly but I tend to be bad when there are people around to see me, and I have no idea why. I used to be worse when I was alone but that's done a flip flop and now when someone can see me eat, I usually do. I'm going to have to impose another rule, I think, which is no eating in front of a computer or a television because I tend to do so rather unconsciously and that is just not good.
On the upside, I was looking at my calendar for activity vs. intake and it appears that I have been, on average, burning 1000 - 1500 calories more per day then I have been taking in, and have been eating much "healthier" than I have in months. I eat far less than the average person because, well, eating that much is gross, but I do eat much better quality food. Switching back to whole foods whenever possible was the best thing I've ever done. I eat less because a lot of it is a pain to prepare, and even if I go completely nuts and eat everything in sight, it's really hard to eat 1200 calories of veggies without exploding.
Anyhow, I'm going to hit the gym Tuesday & Thursday with my trainer and will be sneaking in at least two other cardio sessions for 900 - 1200 calories per.
I'll follow that up with some new photo updates at the end of the week, I loathe to do it, but it holds me accountable.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Day 15 - Ugh
I have officially been seeing my trainer for a week, four sessions in and I'm starting to see some results which is really good, not time for photo shoot #2 yet by any means but I certainly am feeling and seeing some results. (Really this means that I can't move.)
Foodlog for yesterday is:
| Breakfast - 440 Calories 1 serving Danone |
| 2 servings Maple Brown Oatmeal |
| 1/4 cup Milk |
| |
Lunch - 435 Calories
| 1 medium Banana |
| 1 serving Grilled Cheese |
| |
| 1 1 1/2 servings Butternut Squash Soup |
| 1 slice large French Bread |
| |
| 1 serving Black Diamond Cheese String | |
| Total = 1343 Calories Calories burned by existing / working yesterday = 2876 Net Calories for the day = -1533 | |
I still ate too much but don't feel that bad about it considering the kind of day I had.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
day two, and kinda three
SO yesterday didn't totally suck... and then i got up... no im kidding. all in all, it wasn't a total right off. I had under 1000 calories, went on two runs, did 100 crunches, and kept busy all day doing housework and things so it all leveled out quite nice.
I am down to 155
Still a beached whale, but a little less flub... although you really cant tell a difference AT ALL. and chances are I'm going to hit that plateau soon, which blows madly.
ANyways, had a horrible fight yesterday with a friend, and said some things that i didn't think i had the cojones to say, but apparently do. Most of them about how all the make up, tanning, and gym going in the world will never make her even remotely attractive... but now that i think about it, i may have been directing all that at myself, and she was just as good, fat, and ugly and outlet....
Kinda sucks.
But anyway GOB TOMORROW! Lets mosh off all the flab?
I am down to 155
Still a beached whale, but a little less flub... although you really cant tell a difference AT ALL. and chances are I'm going to hit that plateau soon, which blows madly.
ANyways, had a horrible fight yesterday with a friend, and said some things that i didn't think i had the cojones to say, but apparently do. Most of them about how all the make up, tanning, and gym going in the world will never make her even remotely attractive... but now that i think about it, i may have been directing all that at myself, and she was just as good, fat, and ugly and outlet....
Kinda sucks.
But anyway GOB TOMORROW! Lets mosh off all the flab?
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Day 2 - A good day!
Food
Pita Bread - 1 White
Peanut Butter - 1 tbsp
Banana - 1
Milk - 1% 6oz
Hardboiled eggs - 2
Light Mayo - 1 tsp
Yogurt - 1.5% MF - 90g
Dairy Queen Dilly Bar - 1 (Bought by my cousin as an apology, so I had to)
Light Hot Chocolate - 1
1000 calories
Activity
20 Min Stationary Bike
30 Min Eliptical Trainer
40 Min Tread Mill
100 Crunches
1000 Calories
NET CALORIES FOR THE DAY = 0
Go team me!
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